Anniversary of Michael Jackson’s death

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Eight years has passed since the King of Pop, Michael Jackson died of a Propofol overdose on this very date. I watched as television appearances, music videos and memorabilia of Michael Jackson flooded the internet, TV stations and radio. I was thirteen going on fourteen at the time. I remember it all like it was yesterday. His death will and always play a role on how I view and assess the lives of musicians and performers particularly ones before my time.

Growing up, I was a fan of Michael Jackson and his music despite the fact that his musical pinnacle had long passed. My mother was a fan of his and grew up listening to the Jackson Five and followed his solo career. So she played his music around fairly often. I never really paid attention to much of the media scrutiny surrounding his molestation trial, his supposedly eccentric behavior or controversy about his children’s paternity. Once I look back on all of it, I believe that it was an attempt to discredit Michael Jackson’s accomplishments in the music industry. At some intervals, I feel for it, but I always grasped back to loving Michael Jackson and his music. From his Jackson Five Days to his solo career, I believe that his music was the soundtrack to my life.

I remember hearing news of Michael Jackson’s death like it was yesterday. I was babysitting my younger sister and brother and flipping the channels because I was bored. Then I heard that Michael Jackson was on cardiac arrest and rushed to the hospital. I saw scores of people waiting outside of the hospital where he was being treated. Though that flash from the television was brief, it is still embedded in my mind. Eventually, I did changed the channel to Fuse where there was a Kanye West video playing. My mother had come home with some groceries and Taco Bell in tow. She walked in and told me that Michael Jackson had died at age 50 from cardiac arrest. None of us believed it at first. Though I ate the food and went to bed, I couldn’t reconcile the fact that Michael Jackson had passed away until weeks later.

During that summer, I had watched enough of music videos, old television appearances and performances of Michael Jackson to last a lifetime. I started to do some more research on his life and musical accomplishments. I was more impressed by him and it made me like him even more. But what really took me by surprise was his televised memorial. I was shocked and flabbergasted to see so many industry people, family members and friends come forth to share their memories of him. These people weren’t even present when Michael Jackson was being scrutinized and put down daily by the media. So I assumed that these people were fair weather friends and acquaintances speaking about their encounters and experiences knowing and interacting with him. However what really drove me to recognize Michael Jackson’s humanity was when his then, eleven year old daughter, Paris Jackson’s speech. When she came on stage and expressed how much she loved and missed her father, I was moved to tears. It made me realize that Michael Jackson was more than just a musical icon, he was also a son, brother, uncle, and father to three children that he left behind. In spite of his talent, Michael Jackson was a mere mortal just like the rest of us.

A video of Paris Jackson’s speech at the televised Michael Jackson Memorial


Despite his untimely death on June 25th, 2009, Michael Jackson will continue to live on through his music, stories from those who knew him,  and his music videos. To me, that was the day that the world stopped and mourned the passing of such a great musical legend. Though I am still sadden by his demise, his music will always live on and he will always be alive to me……in that aspect.

Watch and enjoy

Michael Jackson’s Thriller(the video, not the album)


Michael Jackson’s Rock With You


Michael Jackson’s Bad


Michael Jackson’s In the Closet


Republicans, and Independents have more sex than Democrats


A friend of mine showed me an article about the supposed frequency of sexual activity between people of various political affiliations. I didn’t believe him, but I started to do more research. Republicans really do have more sex than Democrats while Independents have more sex than both Democrats and Republicans. Despite the differences in sexual activity between people of different political affiliations, income, educational status and background also plays a role in determining the sexual activity as well.

According to an article on the website Daily Headlines, Republicans were more likely to have sexual intercourse within a week than Democrats. Republicans were also less likely to cheat on their spouse or significant other due to higher rates of church attendance. On the other hand, Independents had more sexual intercourse per week than both Republicans and Democrats. But Independents were just as likely to cheat as Democrats. Democrats were also more likely to use condoms during sex and masturbate with sex toys. But educational attainment and socio-economic status plays a role in this disparity a well. Those who were college educated were less likely to be more sexually active during the week. And Democrats are much more likely to be college educated than Republicans and Independents. Those without a college degree were more likely to have sex on a daily basis. Independents are more likely to fall in the category of those without college degree that have sex daily more so than Democrats and Republicans.

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Another study showed that Democrats were more likely to smoke marijuana and have casual sex. Liberals tend to be more relaxed when it came to drug use for recreation as opposed to their Conservative counterparts. They were also more likely to use contraception when engaging in casual sex.  And masturbate with sex toys. Political correct media and culture heavily promotes the idea that using contraception during sex is necessary for safe sex. Views on abortion and reproduction tends to favor women’s right to choose what goes on with her body. On the other hand, Republicans were more likely to have sex in the outdoors often times without any protection. Conservatives are more likely to oppose use of contraception during sex.  Conservatives were also more likely to be religious and listen to Country music, which helps shapes their views on sex and their sexual activity. Their religious views helps support their views on abortion and contraception due to the Bible is staunch on issues regarding reproduction and sex. But the key to Conservatives’ views on sex is Country music. Many Country music songs such as Tanya Tucker’s Would You Lay With Me (In a Field of Stone) portrayed the raunchy details of sexual intercourse in the outdoors. Listening to such songs help influence these listeners on their sexual desires and ways in carrying them out.

Other studies show that Conservatives were much more satisfied with their sex life. A survey showed that more of half of Conservative Republicans reached an orgasm during sex. Only 40% of Liberal Democrats have reached a climax during sex. One study even showed that Trump supporters were more likely to have filmed themselves doing the nasty than their Liberal counterparts.

Sexual positions in bed also align with political views. Studies show that Liberals were more likely to have anal sex, oral sex and threesome and sex with strangers. They were also more likely to masturbate. Conservatives were more likely to favor fewer sexual partners and more likely to prefer the Missionary position during sex. On the other hand, those who prefer doggy style were Conservative on immigration and the death penalty but Liberal when it came to social issues such as gay marriage.

Why are Conservative Republicans more satisfied with their sex lives than Liberal Democrats?

I can’t quite pin point an answer to the question. Not everything is so black and white. People have different experiences that help shape their views on sex and sexual activity. I also believe that their environment also plays a role in helping to shape sexual views. Despite growing up in a small town in Florida, I didn’t quite understand the dating and mating rituals in my area. Girls had their first date at around age 12 and were married by age 21. Women were supposed to wait until they were married to have sex and procreate with men to have children. I grew up attending religious schools that shunned contraception, fornication(another term for sex outside of marriage) and out of wedlock births. As a result, I avoided sexual activity and sexual intercourse throughout my teens. So it was quite a surprise to me to read such adventurous dealings when it came to sex from the Conservative aisle of the political spectrum.

Then I read these studies over and over again. It all started to make sense to me. Many Conservatives are more out there with their sexual escapades, because sexuality and sexual activity was so repressed in their environments. I know this all too well. Getting an orgasm in sexual intercourse makes one feel good and whole especially in an environment that shuns such pleasure. One having fewer sexual partners is another indicator shows that one is more likely to stick with the person that they are with for sexual pleasure. It also means that one is much more likely to form a spiritual and emotional bond with a partner that has fewer sexual partners than one with multiple sexual partners. Having sexual intercourse not only involves the physical but also the spiritual and emotional. When one has sexual intercourse, they are forming an emotional and spiritual bond with that person. Once people sleep with another and then break up, it is much harder to form an emotional and spiritual bond with another lover. It is not to say that those with multiple sexual partners can’t find love or form an emotional and spiritual bond with their lovers or significant others. Of course, they can. But it is much harder. It could explain why many Conservatives are more satisfied with their sex lives than many Liberals.

At the end of the day, political affiliation doesn’t mean that determine the quality of one’s sex life. Not every Conservative is more satisfied with their sex life nor is every Liberal not getting sexed. Studies and surveys also show the opinions and livelihoods of a sample of people being interviewed. An individual Conservative may be satisfied with their sex life. So may a Liberal. In this case, the political is sexual and the sexual is political…….if only one keeps their sexual escapades and life to themselves.



























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The Nurse Nook videos

Every week or so, I would watch videos about the nursing program from a Youtuber called Nurse Nook. As a pre Nursing student, I am interested in the ins and outs of the Nursing program, because it wouldn’t be long until I am in the Nursing program, myself. At the university that I will be transferring to, I will have to complete a few more classes until I can finally apply to the Nursing program. Watching these videos actually gives me helpful insight on how it would be like to be a Nursing student in the Nursing program.


Makeup tutorials

These days, I usually watch videos on Youtube from my music from my favorite artists, travel vloggers and makeup tutorials. While I have always been interested in learning on how to apply makeup, I rarely saw Black female makeup gurus. I wasn’t really aware of them until I read an article on Divine Dark Skin magazine discussing one of Too Much Mouth‘s videos. When I watched one of her videos for the first time, I was amazed and glad to hear that a beautiful woman, that happens to be Black is giving makeup tutorials. From there on, I watched other Black female makeup gurus and was impressed to see how they put their makeup on.

Here is one of her videos

A look back at Prince

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Today is Prince Day. Prince Day was a day that was declared by the Minnesota governor, Mark Dayton to remember and celebrate Prince’s musical legacy. And it also happened to fall on his birthday. If Prince would have been alive, he would have turned fifty nine years old. However it is my mission to remember and celebrate how Prince’s musical legacy how I see it. Hence the importance of Prince’s musical accomplishments must be highlighted to accurately celebrate him, as a musical legend.

Growing up, I always knew who Prince was. My mother had been a huge fan of his and always played his music(well not the songs with sexual connotations in it) often. In fact, she went to see Purple Rain when it was in theaters back in 1984. Though I liked a few of his songs, I didn’t quite understand him. I thought he was weird and effeminate. I felt that it was odd that she held such reverence towards him despite me not thinking much of him. Fortunately, I didn’t really start to like Prince until I was a teenager. I had grown tired of listening to the music of my peers and started to listen to the Classics and oldies. I started to listen to his music and realize how much of a musical genius and pioneer he  was. There wasn’t many online ventures that played his music, but I looked hard enough for the few that did. When I would listen to his music, I would feel a sense of chills and awe from the listening to the sexual connotations of Little Red Corvette and Cream. For some reason, I saw him as edgy and his lyrics spoke to my underlying sexual desires and feelings. I did my research on him and realized all of the influences in his life that led him to create the music he created. Then it donned on me that he wasn’t as weird or effeminate that I had thought he was. Needless to say, I didn’t really start listening to the music from his catalog until after he died.

On the evening of April 20th, 2016, I was texting a guy that I was seeing. He told me that he was going to come see me with a friend. It wasn’t long until he came for me and I met his friend. We walked around and drove around the area. He offered to take me out to eat but I declined. I had already ate that day. Then he stopped outside of my apartment to talk and walk around. In fact, one of the conversations we had was about music. I mentioned Prince as one of my favorite musicians and how I held him in high regard. Then I told him that I had to go to bed because it was a school day. I hugged him and told them goodnight. I went to bed. I didn’t get any news of Prince’s death until a friend of mine texted me the next day. I had just came back from attending Math class that morning and had come back home to take a shower. I was doing some homework when I got an alert from my cell phone. I read a text message that Prince had died. I didn’t believe her until I googled it on my laptop. I couldn’t believe it. Prince is dead at age 57.  So I started to search endlessly for his music and listen to it whenever I can. It wasn’t long until I started to even listen to lesser known songs of his such as I’m Yours from his first album, For You. The more I learned about the music on his catalog the more I began to appreciate the musical greats he left behind for the world to enjoy and appreciate.

What are the main highlights of Prince’s career?

  1. He won an Academy Award for the Best Original Song Score in 1985 for the movie, Purple Rain.
  2. Prince won a total of seven Grammys including one in 1985 for Purple Rain soundtrack.
  3. His albums, 1999 and Purple Rain are rewarded in the Grammys Hall of Fame Award.
  4. He won a total of four MTV Music Awards.
  5. Prince knew how to play over twenty seven instruments.
  6. He produced and wrote all of the songs and played all of the instruments on his 1978 debut album, For You.
  7. His estate, Paisley Park was his home and also a built in studio for him to record his own music
  8. Prince left Warner Brother’s contract and protested against the music label’s control over the content and production of the music he produced. He wrote the word, slave on his cheek as an act of defiance.
  9. Chaka Khan’s song, I Feel For You was originally written and composed by Prince early in his career.
  10. Prince is often compared to his counterpart, the late King of Pop, Michael Jackson.

More over, I appreciate the musical legacy and catalog that Prince left behind. Millions around the world were devastated by the news of his death like I was. Fortunately, he will live on through his music and accolades he achieved while he was on earth. There wouldn’t be another musician like him ever again.







America in decline: My views on a society hellbent on self destruction

As I woke up and read an article about a Somalian woman being beaten by a White man in a hate crime. I was horrified to read about the details of such an incident, but it is becoming more common place. Between the rise of hate crimes brewing in the country and Donald Trump’s dysfunctional administration woes, I have been concerned about the direction the United States is headed morally, economically and politically. The direction of this country has been having me thinking about the long term consequences of Donald Trump’s actions and the actions of millions of Americans and the world.

Here is the picture of the Somalian woman I was discussing. She was harassed and beaten by a random White man after protecting another Muslim woman. Her face is fractured and she lost four teeth. The incident is being investigated as a hate crime. Unfortunately, the hate and xenophobia of many White Americans has no boundaries nowadays.

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In Portland Oregon, an alt right/White Nationalist rally was held where White Nationalists gathered to congregate. Many left winging and anti racist groups protested such activity and marched in retaliation. But things turned deadly when a White supremacist named Jeremy Christian stabbed three people in an attempt to block his speaking to two young women. Protestors on both sides had clashed and many arrests were made. Recently, Christian had been arrested with counts of aggravated murder, attempted murder and intimidation. In his courtroom appearance, his rants about freedom of speech wouldn’t have been more bizarre as he compared his actions to ”patriotism”. Christians concluded, “Free speech or die, Portland. You call it terrorism I call it patriotism,” Christian shouted. “If you don’t like free speech get the f*** out of my country.”

While I believe that every American has the right to freedom of speech and expressing one’s self, this man went too far. His actions were inappropriate, and a poor reflection on his character. From hollering at two young women to stabbing three people (one fatally stabbed), his using of freedom of speech to excuse his actions are poor. However his actions and use of the ”freedom of speech” to cover up for his behavior only represents the wider problem of xenophobia and wanting to preserve America’s traditionally Anglo Saxon, Christian heritage to the expense of everyone else. Many White Americans like Jeremy Christian see America as ”their country” while minorities such as African Americans, Hispanics, Asians, Middle Easterners, Pacific Islanders and racially mixed individuals are seen as ”outsiders” taking away resources that ”rightfully belong” to White men and White women. The rise of the alt right movement and White Nationalism, headed by leader, Richard Spencer is a personification of the rising dissent among many White Americans about their declining birth rates, the country’s population growing browner, and immigration. I believe that Donald Trump and the Republican party along with his supporters are more interested in bringing  down the country and ruining the world for future generations than to share resources and be tolerant of those unlike themselves.

Donald Trump’s election as the forty fifth president of the United States is the culprit of the rising xenophobia and racism in the country. He ran his campaign on hatred of Muslims, calling Mexican immigrants rapists, talking down to the Black Community, and the release of a tape that showed Donald Trump telling another man to ”grab women by the pussy” solidified his disgusting rhetoric. Not surprisingly, White Nationalists such as Richard Spencer showed their support for Donald Trump as well as Republicans, working class White voters, and White evangelists. Many White Americans feel that they found solidarity with him on issues regarding race, sexism, immigration and economic issues. Many working class White voters believed his campaign promises that he would bring coal mining jobs back, secure Medicare and Medicaid, help restore economy and capture ISIS. After all, Trump ran as a populist. Sure, many of his voters and supporters did agree with his economic policies, but they were much more drawn to his rants such as ”Hillary for prison” and ”Build that wall”. However my observations have shown that Donald Trump hasn’t really carried out the promises that he has promised his supporters. His ”travel ban” on Muslims from seven Middle Eastern countries had been revoked numerous times, his healthcare bill has yet to pass the Senate, and his budget proposal threatens to cut many social programs for the needy. He tweets endlessly, golfs at Mar a Lago, and embarrasses the nation whenever he visits a foreign country to meet with a foreign leader. His confidante, Kellyanne Conway always appears on television with another lie to tell American viewers. His daughter, Ivanka Trump and son in law, Jared Kushner have their own wings in the White House and even confide in the president despite not being elected officials. How is this not nepotism? I can elaborate more on my observation of the actions and on goings of the Trump administration, but it is best to notice how many of his ridiculous actions affect the economy and direction this country is going in.

How have his actions or lack of affected the direction and state of the country?

The growth of the economy has also slowed down. In April, reports have shown that the economic growth in the first quarter of 2017 has only been 0.7%. Such percentage is much lower than the average 2.1% in the fourth quarter of 2016 and throughout the eight year tenure of President Obama’s term. It has been estimated that this has been the slowest in three years due to sluggish consumer spending and offset business retirement investment. Many malls and businesses are closing down or being brought out by bigger commodities. All of this isn’t an indicator of Donald Trump’s handling of the economy, but it just shows that maybe his presidency does have a negative impact on the economy.

Despite reports of him saving around eight hundred jobs at Carrier Plant in Indiana from out shored, many more jobs are still being shipped to Mexico. By December, around six hundred workers will be receiving pink slips through a five month span, starting next month. For a man that campaigned on being a job creator, he could have made sure all of those jobs stayed in America not just eight hundred. Another example of this is Trump’s deals with Boeing, an engineering company in Charleston, South Carolina. He promised to not ship any jobs overseas. However, the vice president of Engineering at Boeing, John Hamilton said on the campus’s website that ”hundreds employees” will be laid off and there will be a reduction in engineering jobs. The company is laying off worker due to accepting a round of voluntary buy outs. Engineering staff, who accepted the proposal will leave along with a thousand machinists. Instead, another business will be built in China. So much for Trump’s populism.

His denial of climate change will also cost America jobs. Due to the fact that he doesn’t believe in climate change, many renewable energy jobs will be shipped overseas. It also led to him pulling out of the Paris Climate Change Agreement recently. There was much controversy surrounding his decision, but it also shows that America isn’t a world leader in protecting the sanctions of the planet. In fact, his stance on climate change has troubled many world leaders particularly German chancellor,  Angela Merkel.

America has lost it’s standing and reverence as a country of freedom and peace among the world. Many other countries look at America as a joke. There was a cartoon with Donald Trump throwing his golf club while there is water underneath him as a way to mock his stance on pulling out of the Paris Climate Change Agreement. Recently, German chancellor, Angela Merkel made a speech about why she doesn’t believe that America or the United Kingdom(Great Britain) can be fully trusted as allies anymore. Especially America. Like many foreign world leaders, Merkel is concerned about Donald Trump’s lack of regard for the clauses found in NATO, and his lack of belief that climate change endangers the welfare of billions of people on earth. It was astounding to see that it took a foreign leader to address the dangers of having Donald Trump as president. Besides former Democratic candidate for the 2016 election, Bernie Sanders, not many American politicians have spoken up against Donald Trump’s dangerous policies. And this makes America look bad to other countries that such an incompetent leader is running the country.

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His xenophobic views on Muslims had translated into a series of Muslim bans, which has been stroke down by the Supreme Court. Even his revised ”Travel Ban” wreaks of the same Islamophobic belief system that spewed such legislation to be enacted in the first place. His hatred of Mexican immigrants translated into a belief that one has to build a wall between the Mexican border and American border to keep out illegal immigrants with criminal records. While I don’t see anything wrong with wanting to protect American borders from terrorists and criminals. I don’t believe that racially stereotyping a group of people helps things either. His racism has translated into hiring known racist, Jeff Sessions as attorney general and White Nationalist, Stephen Bannon as White House chief strategist. Due to their influence on race relations, there has been reports of practicing voter suppression among African Americans. The whole goal is to roll back the achievements of the Civil Rights Movement back to pre-1965 quotas and limit the rights of minorities. The homophobia and transphobia in his administration will make sure to limit the rights of the LGBT. His sexism has translated into him signing the Global Gag Rule that limited women’s right to choose what goes on with their bodies on a global scale. Such legislation led to the Women’s March in January. Infringing on the rights of others to maintain some kind of false utopia of the glory of White prosperity will not work in the end.

Personally, I was disgusted to hear that he had won the election that November morning. As a Black woman, whose family is from Jamaica, I was (and still) terrified of how his policies on immigration will affect the country. Particularly my family. And the families of millions of people with immigrants. Think about how his policies will affect the livelihood of the world as well. Unfortunately, I believe that such staunch and totalitarian view of the world is leading to the inevitable demise of the United States of America.

















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My ”Holy Diver” into Heavy Metal

”Holy Diver. You’ve been down too long in the midnight sea. Oh what’s becoming of me? Ride the Tiger. You can see it’s stripes, but you know it’s clean. Oh don’t you see what I mean?”- Ronnie James Dio’s Holy Diver

Like I discussed in my previous post, listening to Led Zeppelin opened me up to listening to a multiple amount of Rock bands. But I will discuss delving into the realms of Hard Rock and Heavy Metal. Often times, listening to these bands has helped me cope with the pressures and difficulties I face in life. As I delve deeper and deeper into ”heavier” musical styles, my ascendance and interest in it will be dissected and analyzed by my perspective.

My graduation from high school in May 2014 and being accepted into an expensive four year university was the panacea to everything in my life. Being of working class background, I really looked forward to attending a university, because I felt that if I graduated from university with a degree will end the cycle of poverty and struggling in my adult life. Also I really looked forward to moving away from home and asserting myself as a young woman. I even visited the campus of the university to see how living on campus will be like for me. All of my excitement for attending this private university waned when I received a call from the financial aid office of the school. I was told that I didn’t have enough funds needed to cover the expenses of room and boarding. It was heartbreaking for me to hear. I was also told that there was some mistake with the school processing my Financial Aid. My family and I traveled to the financial aid office on campus to discuss ways to solve the problem, but I was told that I had exhausted all of the financial aid needed to attend that semester. I went home, feeling so lost and distraught. I slipped into depression as the months went by. To cope with my feelings of rejection and fear, I started to listen to the likes of Black Sabbath, Iron Maiden, Metallica and heavier bands to get by. Though I had been listening to the likes of Led Zeppelin and Deep Purple, it was pretty much inevitable that I would get into the harder musical catalogs. Listening to the music and lyrics was soothing and refreshing to my mind and soul, because often times, the topic of the song easily related to my life’s experiences.

Here is a picture of myself from graduation.



I went from this to becoming like this in several months

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The first picture is actually of myself while the last picture is from Shutterstock to illustrate how I was feeling in fall of 2014.

Fortunately, I was able to get into a community college and start attending it. My musical tastes did start to include the Beatles, but I found myself getting into Guns n Roses, Ozzy Osbourne and Dio. For me, the heavier the better. I still enjoyed the light heart songs from Genesis, Beatles, Billy Joel, and Chicago, but somehow I resonated more with the fuck authority and do my own thing message that was very prevalent in harder Rock music. Recently, I have been delving more into Motley Crue, Rainbow, Whitesnake, Def Leppard, and Dio as I find listening to more bands and exploring my likes and dislikes broadens my outlook on musical genres. Fortunately, listening to Classic Rock, Hard Rock and Metal has broaden my tastes and outlook on artistry, musical forms and styles.

Most of all, I feel like the lyrics of the music speak to my emotions and inner self. I can relate to the Deep Purple‘s tune, Lazy and not wanting to get out of bed. Or the cold cutting lyrics of Rainbow‘s Stone Cold about love lost and infidelity. Either way, I believe that the music one listens to tells others a lot about their personality and who they are. And I believe that my musical tastes help reflect who I am as a person-for the better or the worst.