”Holy Diver. You’ve been down too long in the midnight sea. Oh what’s becoming of me? Ride the Tiger. You can see it’s stripes, but you know it’s clean. Oh don’t you see what I mean?”- Ronnie James Dio’s Holy Diver
Like I discussed in my previous post, listening to Led Zeppelin opened me up to listening to a multiple amount of Rock bands. But I will discuss delving into the realms of Hard Rock and Heavy Metal. Often times, listening to these bands has helped me cope with the pressures and difficulties I face in life. As I delve deeper and deeper into ”heavier” musical styles, my ascendance and interest in it will be dissected and analyzed by my perspective.
My graduation from high school in May 2014 and being accepted into an expensive four year university was the panacea to everything in my life. Being of working class background, I really looked forward to attending a university, because I felt that if I graduated from university with a degree will end the cycle of poverty and struggling in my adult life. Also I really looked forward to moving away from home and asserting myself as a young woman. I even visited the campus of the university to see how living on campus will be like for me. All of my excitement for attending this private university waned when I received a call from the financial aid office of the school. I was told that I didn’t have enough funds needed to cover the expenses of room and boarding. It was heartbreaking for me to hear. I was also told that there was some mistake with the school processing my Financial Aid. My family and I traveled to the financial aid office on campus to discuss ways to solve the problem, but I was told that I had exhausted all of the financial aid needed to attend that semester. I went home, feeling so lost and distraught. I slipped into depression as the months went by. To cope with my feelings of rejection and fear, I started to listen to the likes of Black Sabbath, Iron Maiden, Metallica and heavier bands to get by. Though I had been listening to the likes of Led Zeppelin and Deep Purple, it was pretty much inevitable that I would get into the harder musical catalogs. Listening to the music and lyrics was soothing and refreshing to my mind and soul, because often times, the topic of the song easily related to my life’s experiences.
Here is a picture of myself from graduation.
I went from this to becoming like this in several months
The first picture is actually of myself while the last picture is from Shutterstock to illustrate how I was feeling in fall of 2014.
Fortunately, I was able to get into a community college and start attending it. My musical tastes did start to include the Beatles, but I found myself getting into Guns n Roses, Ozzy Osbourne and Dio. For me, the heavier the better. I still enjoyed the light heart songs from Genesis, Beatles, Billy Joel, and Chicago, but somehow I resonated more with the fuck authority and do my own thing message that was very prevalent in harder Rock music. Recently, I have been delving more into Motley Crue, Rainbow, Whitesnake, Def Leppard, and Dio as I find listening to more bands and exploring my likes and dislikes broadens my outlook on musical genres. Fortunately, listening to Classic Rock, Hard Rock and Metal has broaden my tastes and outlook on artistry, musical forms and styles.
Most of all, I feel like the lyrics of the music speak to my emotions and inner self. I can relate to the Deep Purple‘s tune, Lazy and not wanting to get out of bed. Or the cold cutting lyrics of Rainbow‘s Stone Cold about love lost and infidelity. Either way, I believe that the music one listens to tells others a lot about their personality and who they are. And I believe that my musical tastes help reflect who I am as a person-for the better or the worst.