Yesterday, I looked forward to Mother’s Day, but something went wrong. There isn’t much food in the house due to my mother not getting her paycheck. I hadn’t received my last paycheck from my work study job yet. Then, I did finally receive my meager paycheck. I decided to buy some Chinese food for the family to eat for dinner. My mother didn’t like it due to the small quantity of the food and called me selfish. Nothing I can is ever right in my eyes. This time, I believe that it is time to go on my own and not look back.
In my twenty one years of living, I only lived apart from my mother for a year or so. I did so to get away from her, form my own sense of independence as I went away to college. I had to come back home due to not having a form of income to sustain a living. Though I had some spats here and there, I was able to tolerate living at home…..until recently. The tension started to mount when I got the job at the admission’s office and started to make my own money. She would always rely on me for money despite earning money from two income sources. And she would get mad at me for trying to save my money for more valuable pursuits. Though my mother would always criticize me and make me feel worthless, the topic of money would exacerbates the problem even more.
Fortunately, I called a few friends to discuss the issues I was having with my mother. This older friend of mine suggested that I pray about it and find a way to move out while the other wanted me to stick it out. But the most helpful advice came from a long time friend of mine. She told me to build up my self esteem and move out of my mother’s place as I get ready to transfer to University of Tampa. As much as I want to gain some independence from my mother, I truly want to cut off contact from her once I gain some independence.
At the end of the day, I believe that family can be one of the most troubling aspects of one’s life. In the case, it happens to be the dilemma. I realize that the best thing to do is keep my distance from her and eventually cut off contact. Cutting off contact from someone, particularly a relative, isn’t a rash decision. Unfortunately, I believe that it is set in stone for a non existent relationship with my mother in the coming future years. Outweighing the positives and negatives of cutting off contact from my mother and her side of the family, I believe that there will be more positive benefits from distancing myself from these people.